All at once, there was purpose. There was release in the eyes-closed, full-of-faith dive into the deep waters. There was comfort, peace…freedom. In this space, you allowed me to share myself. Two years ago today, you caught me.
I launched this journey in response to the forever-call on my heart. My heart is for people – for you. Becoming a mother made it all the more apparent that we need honest and vulnerable community. However, I didn’t want to be that person – the “share-er”. Goodness, I was more than sure that I was NOT that person. Silence is comfortable; it gives you shelter from the inevitable storm that awaits vulnerability making her subtle debut. So yeah. It’s not exactly the easiest transition when you’re an introverted Enneagram 2*. I just knew I could not be the only human who felt this way.
There was no possible scenario in which I was the sole person who had anxiety, felt “less-than”, or struggled with comparison. Although it’s often a lonely existence for some of us, we are far from alone. We need others to break through the barrier of perfectly-curated and tell us that it’s okay to not be okay.
Following the journeys of Jenna Kutcher (@jennakutcher), Amanda Auer (@amandaauer) and Julia Valean (@juliavalean) has been a true blessing. Their social media accounts are more than just photographs. They are beautiful humans sharing their pure, honest, heartbreaking, joyful, gut-wrenching, loving, real lives with the rest of the world. These women don’t just share. They pray, encourage and inspire. They love and they celebrate. They do it all with/for their community – in person and through the Internet. These ladies are the real deal. They are the people we need. They are shouting it from the mountaintop: it’s okay to not be okay.
So I will continue to follow in their graciously humble footsteps. I will pray for, cry and dance with you. I will share my life – all of me – with you. I will walk boldly (and not-so-boldly) into this new season (as should you), as Christ shines and holds me/you together through it all.
P.S. Sorry it’s been so long. I’ll be around more often now. 💛
*for more resources on the Enneagram, here are some lovely books/sites/podcasts to scope out (these are not affiliate links…I just love the Enneagram):